RunawayStarfish

Runaway Starfish of a spongy orange fly through the ocean like a bird through sky wait for high tide like the muscle forests surrounding you And just let go Let go of anger of any frustration of anything surreal and allow the tide to carry you to someplace or someone new Runaway Starfish fly fly away

If I somehow    gain the courage to choke out "why not?" will you take the next step or will you ask me to? Ill slowly move my body wondering all the while if your watching my eyes or the uneven movements of my hand to your hair and my body mimicking yours "Kiss me" hopefully someday those words will vocalize since the only thing I seem to spew with you is silence and more unanswered questions The answer is always what you want it to be Because I will always want crave and be addicted to you...

You have stolen my heart And now its nowhere to be found   (Does that mean you've kept it?) In most ways I want you to have it In most ways I want you to have me In many more ways I want you and only you    (...well maybe not only) When I thought of her last night I felt tears come to my eyes And I've began to wonder         why? And the only answer that replays in my head is    idontknow    idontknow

You force me to love you    But im not sure how I how know my eyes light up when they meet yours even more-so when you smile I forget everything and start remembering you start remembering better days days when my smile was real days when I knew what to expect when I had a plan when I was a sister instead of a mother when I had room to breathe days when I was yours and you were mine        (I dont think you'll ever               be mine again...)

I dont want to spend the whole night crying thinking of if you were here I dont want to spend the whole night trying thinking of effects of ware and tear I do need to cry doesnt mean I should die drowning in worry and regret Im thinking of leaving as long as it might... will help I dont want to die regretting my decition and starting incition into my most useful organs, bleeding out silently quietly, unknowingly and softly singing myself to sleep something I may never wake from and drop a bomb on all thats haunting my sleep Ill work hard to get somewhere whether it be heaven or hell

Why we try too hard is a mystery to me but sometimes when we try too hard we succeed      (does that mean if I                  try too hard, I will prevail?) We build ourselves up to tear ourselves down       once again and lay in ruins thinking of whats to come and what has happened in past lives       (Humans will never have nine lives) Watching you sleep      so peacefully makes me smile Felling your hand       entangled with mine makes me smile Tasting your lips        at midnight makes me smile Smelling your shirt       the one you wear makes me smile So why dont I smile when I think of the ruins before

I wish life could be ironed out like wrinkled T-shirts and steam I wish courage was something we were born with so that I could do those things I only think I wish someone would take me away from all this like falling in love or sex So I wait for my shooting star so far above in space and sigh      (Maybe now my wish                           will come true)

You pick away   at the mask you wear   as silence eats whats left   in your state You leave the pieces hoping someday someone might find them and your cinderella story would come true The mask you've worn makes your sobs moans and runs your tempurature past 105 degrees leaves you breathless and sweating looking for the one way out Capture the princess kiss my prince

When you say    "Cant wait to see you" What you really mean is      you two Does that mean when you say      "I miss you" you miss us both          the same? I want to be enough just me I havent slept well lately is that because of this stress      or you being gone?                 yeahright                        youwishhelovedyou                        youwishhelovedyou (the thing is, I do)

The smell that comes to mind is lavender and lemongrass Because words cant describe it and I could never explain you Thoughts of dandelions and greenstained kneecaps tickle my fantasies I see you reflected in every shining surface because there's more you in me than i in myself. And when I look in your eyes, and see black and brown with specks of gold all i see is you Even in unconsciousness, your laugh is like a solemn lullaby keeping me in this dream world as my body silently screams i know in my heart (which is all yours, by the way) i'll never be the same without you... this time I say lovelovelovelove but what im